Wednesday, 9 January 2008 . 11:01

I'm soon 20yrs old, and this fact is making me look back at my life till now (sometimes i sound as though i'm 60!!! :/ ). But anyhow, with all the ups and downs i've been through, only now can i look back and truly see God's presence in every instance of my life, especially in the times where I felt Him most distant. I keep hearing and reading the story of Footprints over and over again, and each time i identify myself 100% with the story. Its sooo awesome!!!
Till this very day I'm amazed at the fact that I became "Nerdy". In what sense. 5 years back, anyone who prayed, spoke about God, and said God was the centre of their lives was instantly labelled "NERDY FREAK" by Moi! And now... well.. it is I who will not let go of God! :) If before I was convinced that the life of a Christian is a boring one I am happy to say I was WRONG! Its a fantabulous journey, each day is an unexpected adventure, and I myself ended up doing things I never ever dreamt I would! Video editing for a Christian TV program, dancing, sharing my experience to something like 500 people at one go, be committed daily to a youth group, guide 9 girls, camp for a sleepless week in England, feature on the news side by side to the archbishop, help out in concerts, print a 2-storey high banner which I myself designed... ect...!!! In the past 5 years I lived more of a life than the previous 15 years put together!
God just keeps opening doors to new experiences and new adventures, and i'm sooo excited for all the plans he has in store for us in the future.
However... a christian life isn't just sugar puffs, candy floss and love hearts. There are the tough times too. Just this week I had a hell of a week. I was so down, worried about future happenings, disheartened over my studies, i felt alone, as though no one could understand me, and I felt God much further away than ever.
Last night was the final straw. I'm fed up of sobbing over spilt milk, nagging over things i have no control of. I can't do anything about the fact that key people in life pass away, heartless people ruin lives, and changes happen. All I can do is trust God in everything that happens. I have to take each day as it comes, and focus on others; make people smile, fill my dad's stomach with a good meal cooked with love, help my friends whenever I can, and most of all, introduce people to my Saviour and Friend, Jesus.

"Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing" Mother Teresa 3 comments