'Too many issues, too much to do,
Too much to deal with for me to pull through.
I’ve dug much deeper then before and it’s hurting so much more
Yet how much more can I take before I truly start to break?
The shivers, hurts, thoughts and pains I’ve felt in previous years
Are here, tormenting me once again, escaping in endless tears.
Her touch, her smile, her laugh, her voice; it’s all coming back to me,
Seems like everything was buried alive in the deepest depths of me.
I had made myself forget the things that were beyond my mind and soul,
And I became a busy bee to fill-in that big black hole.
I had a positive life, travelling far, moving on step by step…
But meanwhile very deep inside, unknown to me, I wept…
And today, this very morning, as my mind was blank and numb,
My heart got in touch with the feelings within, and I felt the need of a Mum.
I need a guide, a comforter, a friend, a haven of rest,
Someone to laugh and argue with, someone who knows the best,
Someone to put me back on track when she sees me going astray,
Someone who’s shoulder’s available at any time of the day.
Someone for whom I’d close my eyes and thank God for whenever I pray
Someone to care for, cuddle and love; someone to hug everyday.
Someone I can just be with, someone who knows me through,
Someone who knows my fears and strengths, someone I once knew…
I feel the need to belong, somewhere, someplace, somehow,
I’m having a deja’ vu… but I’m only feeling it now…'